
The longer I call myself a writer, the less I can stand mystic visions of art-making. I may have grown too skeptical, but my skin puckers at the very mention of the word “muse” and I summarily ignore all blathering about divine channeling and celestial inspiration. This isn’t to say that I can’t find some value in these statements historically speaking, but its not my mode of thinking, and I can’t stomach it in my peers. It’s possible that this metaphysical rapture is a real part of the process, an inexorable aspect of talent and creation. But if it’s so, it’s the piece on which we have the least control, and, yes, there are other parts of the process deserving of our attentions.
In general, what I react against is the mythos of the artist figure. Of course I think our great artists should be revered, yet not in the ways they often are. Salute the poet for her poems, not her emotional distress and eventual suicide. Praise the painter for his paintings, not his extravagance and tacky parties. And stop incorporating the foibles of regular life into the terms of artmaking.
He had a number of friends who played the genius card when it suited, failing to show up to this or that in the belief that whatever local upset it caused, it could only increase respect for the compelling nature of their high calling. These types — novelists were by far the worst — managed to convince friends and family that not only their working hours, but every nap and stroll, every fit of silence, depression or drunkenness bore the exculpatory ticket of high intent. A mask for mediocrity, was Clive’s view. He didn’t doubt that the calling was high, but bad behavior was not a part of it. Perhaps every century there was an exception or two to be made; Beethoven, yes; Dylan Thomas, most certainly not.
– Ian McEwan, Amsterdam
I appreciate McEwan’s tendency to dispel the hocus pocus and get on with the work. This isn’t to say that his artistic characters don’t still need trips to the mountains for inspiration, or that they don’t suffer from fits of various kinds. But the metatextual statement reinforces that all of this myth-making plays second violin to the reality of the working process. Clive Linley works through the night on his symphony, and when his attempts to write the final melody elude him, he sets himself to lesser tasks like “rewriting messy pages of manuscript…” Mundane, tedious stuff.
But of course the crucial argument here, in McEwan’s text, is about the whole myth of the wild genius. I’m with Clive on this, if I’d phrase it differently: writers who get drunk every night may end up writing about it, but more importantly, they’re drunks. Similarly for the depressed, the depraved, and the disassociated. I’m sure there’s some truth that artists need some vice or failing in order to create genuine art that reflects human experience. The problem is where these things become sought after, cultivated, and used as an excuse for self indulgence. Find me any person without some small crisis and I’ll be amazed, so it’s not unique to the artist and it certainly doesn’t need to be adopted with deliberation. Going on a weekly bender doesn’t make you any greater of an artist, and if anything, it probably saps the strength you would have had for your work. Even pulling no-shows to events only makes you seem inconsiderate, not like a mind so great it must be unreliable in social engagements.
For me it comes down to this: while there is an excitingly thin line between madness and genius along which we often can see our greatest artists walking or running, it can’t be forced. Bringing yourself to delirium through planning and effort couldn’t be further from that looming insanity we see on the edges of truly great minds. It cannot be programmed. Any who make a real attempt will probably blow right past the line and end up crazy. Even if you could manage it, would you make that trade for the work? I love John Berryman’s poems, but I’d never take on the life he lived in order to write as he did. If I am mediocre, I’d rather not mask it. I’d rather give up the hocus pocus and try to develop through work.